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[afailedmurder]

what it says on the tin

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[rollplayinghouse]

Maki: Then tell me what you're thinking.
Maki: That's why you texted, right?

[afailedmurder]

A: I was thinking about how easy it is for them to spirit us away.
A: Objectively speaking, I should have been happy on that talk show. That kind of thing is my forte, and there were no games or memory broadcasts...
A: Yet all I could think about was coming back.

[rollplayinghouse]

Maki: I don't think that's objectively true at all.
Maki: Just because it's something you're good at and nothing bad happened doesn't mean you should be happy.

[afailedmurder]

A: I suppose you're right. Humans are hard-wired social creatures.

[rollplayinghouse]

Maki: I guess.
Maki: But it's also about what you like.

[afailedmurder]

A: I wouldn't say I even disliked it...
A: But it was lonely.

[rollplayinghouse]

Maki: Not disliking something isn't the same as liking it. I said that before, didn't I?

[...]

Maki: Do you want to come over here?

[afailedmurder]

A: Yes.
A: Be right there.

[it does not take him long at all]

[rollplayinghouse]

[She's in her pajamas when she opens ☆ZRAEL's door, and she just leads him back to her room quietly.]

[afailedmurder]

[he is as well, with his bed shrunken and sitting in his front pocket]

Hi.

[rollplayinghouse]

Hi.

Should we sit and talk a bit?

[afailedmurder]

Yes, thank you.

[rollplayinghouse]

Then come here.

[grabs his hand and tugs him to sit on the bed with her]

[afailedmurder]

[yeah ok]

I wasn't entirely sure what was appropriate under our circumstances...

[rollplayinghouse]

The whole point of our circumstances is worrying less about what's appropriate. I want you here.

[settles in against the headboard, leaning against his side]

[afailedmurder]

Sorry.

[rests his head on hers]

I feel so lost these days.

[rollplayinghouse]

More than before?

[afailedmurder]

I wouldn't say more, exactly...

But not much less, either.

[rollplayinghouse]

Well... is there somewhere you want to be?

[afailedmurder]

[considers that]

I don't know where I can go from here.

[rollplayinghouse]

Don't worry about can for a minute. If you could wipe everything out and start over, what would you want to do?

[afailedmurder]

I'd... want to become the person I always pretended to be.

[rollplayinghouse]

What parts of that person are most important to you?

[afailedmurder]

[can't say smart because he's already smart]

[can't say liked because inexplicably, he is liked]

...He has integrity.

[rollplayinghouse]

Do you not think you have integrity?